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Changes
00:52
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Looking out onto the overpass
An ocean of headlights staring back at me
It’s really hard to believe in a few years’ time
Most of what we see will become a memory
Wave after wave of cars will pass through our field of vision
Nothing in life ever stays the same
And change is the only constant part of our lives
Our eyes remain focused and our voices silent
What keeps changing is the view
I’m nostalgic for memories that never happened
I miss friends I’ve never made
I miss a girl I’ve never fallen in love with
Where have I been for my entire life?
I’ve been longing for a change
Starting with meeting you
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Good Things Fall Apart
01:06
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As we make our way through the city
That never seems to sleep
Or at least just stop and take a breath
You hold my hand as tight as you possibly can
It may not seem like much to you
But there’s a promise I’ll always keep
It was the moment I turned to you and said
“Darling, you are never alone because you always have me”
To a tourist, street signs lead to destinations
But they can also lead to memories you’ll never forget
And constantly revisit
I feel the bitter cold on my hands
Our breath freezes with each word we speak
As we walk to my apartment
You watch me smile as I fumble for my keys
There’s only one thing you can’t see
And it’s how afraid I am that you’ll leave
We set our coats on my kitchen table
I make us each a cup of coffee
The dim lights illuminate your beautiful face
And I could sit here forever with you, engulfed in conversation
Nothing in our lives ever stays the same
But I never want my feelings for you to change
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Speechless
01:13
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Many words are in the English language
Some of which I’ve never heard
I can’t think of a single one to describe you
You’re as beautiful as every constellation
As quiet as every kitchen conversation
Your mind is as vast as the universe we inhabit
Like a brave explorer, sailing to a new world
I’ll brave the most hazardous conditions
Just to unravel every thought in your mind
If I did the same to myself
I’d realize that most of my thoughts are of you
You’re a dream that I haven’t quite woken up from
Can anyone tell me what’s going on?
I’m so out of touch with myself
If I know one thing, there are many men like me
But just one woman like you
I’m speechless every day I see your face
I never what know what to say
You could have any man on the planet
So what makes me the exception?
Am I everything you’ve ever wanted?
I ask myself those questions constantly
The answers may come with time
I read long ago that good things fall apart
So better things can fall together
Will you fall together with me?
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Faulty Machines
01:06
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The other day, I was walking down every hallway in my house
And I didn’t know what felt emptier – the hallway or myself
Lately I’ve been feeling as though I’m missing something
But I can’t place my finger on it
After awhile, the answer was obvious to me:
I was missing you
From the moment of our first conversation
In the kitchen of my dimly lit apartment
You haven’t escaped a single thought of mine
I really don’t know what it is about you
But you captivate me unlike anyone ever has
Is it when you smile at me from across the room?
Is it when you laugh at all of my stupid jokes?
Or is it when you kiss me for no reason?
As clever as I appear to be, I don’t know everything
And I’ll never know what made you pick me
No one has ever made me so speechless
When I try to even remotely think of you
My mind shuts down like a faulty machine
So many thoughts racing at once, where do I begin?
I don’t know where to end
And honestly, I never want to end
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Perfection
01:01
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Perfection is an overrated concept
Used incorrectly by those who speak its name
I’ve always refrained from saying it
Because no one I’ve met fit its description
You were always a fantasy in my mind
I never knew your name, I never saw your face
But your likeness flourished and grew over time
What I never figured out was that person is you
I already know so much about you
But I want to hear what no one else knows
Study your mind until there’s nothing left to learn
I’ve spent my whole life searching for someone like you
But you’ve been here this whole time
I’ve picked your brain apart to near completion
I still think there’s a lot to know
The best way to figure that out is through deep conversation
But when it’s over, I’m afraid of your reaction
Am I as perfect to you as you are to me?
That thought haunts my dreams
Do I ever want to know?
No matter the outcome, I’ll always be content knowing
That someone perfect is out there for me
And that person is you
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Death & Loneliness
01:16
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Throughout my meaningless existence
At least, that’s what I’ve always thought it’s been
I don’t know why I’m here
I don’t know what my purpose is in life
But you’d be surprised to know that failure is not my biggest fear
It’s certainly one of many fears that I’ve acquired
Heights, spiders, and clowns
Disappointment, regret, and failure
But I’m afraid of two things more than all of those combined:
Death and loneliness
Those two words alone strike fear in my heart
When I think of death, I can’t breathe
Being nothing absolutely frightens me
And being completely alone scares me even more
But I’ll be okay if there’s someone by my side
In my final moments of life
I don’t plan on dying for many years, my dear
But I want to know I’m not alone
Even before that moment comes, I’m afraid of loneliness
Spending every day consumed by my own thoughts
It can surely drive a man insane
So will you me keep me company through sleepless nights
And make up for every day I’ve spent alone
I’m too scared of being alone
And I never want to leave your side
I just hope you never want to leave mine
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Shelter
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I’ve always been a quiet boy
I observe much more than I speak
You wouldn’t know it from looking at me
But my eyes have seen so much
They’ve witnessed love’s formation and its subsequent demise
They’ve seen friendships drift apart
As though they were two ships both lost at sea
I’ve felt plenty of sadness
But I don’t let it get the best of me
I don’t let my past determine my future
Due to many failed romances
It’s quite difficult for me to trust
I haven’t gotten close to anyone in a very long time
You’re an exception
I have no fear of opening up to you
You make me feel safe and secure
You are my shelter
From every memory that’s haunted me
And all I ask from you is that you never let me go
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Sitting in a dimly lit kitchen,
Our voices echoing softly through the room
Our coffee keeping our hands warm,
We’ve been talking for what seems like hours
I told you many things I’d never tell anyone else
My deepest fears and regrets
I poured out my heart to you
Telling you every feeling I have towards you
You make me utterly speechless
Yet I can ramble for hours
About your smile and how your face glows in the sunlight
Accentuating your beauty
We look outside and see it’s morning
The sun is rising in east
I wish you didn’t have to go home
I’d love nothing more than to sit with you
And learn every detail about yourself
Study your mind until there’s nothing left to learn
Before you go, I need to ask you something
How do you feel about me?
You smile and give me a kiss
And say “You’ll need to see me again
To find out the answer”
You know how to keep me on the edge of my seat
If there’s one thing I want you to take
From everything I’ve said today
Aside from your purse and keys, just remember
Good things fall apart
Just so even better things can fall together
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Something Beautiful
01:11
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10. |
Speechless (Demo)
01:12
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There are many words in the English language
Some of which I’ve never heard
But I can’t think of a single one to describe you perfectly
You’re as beautiful as every constellation in the sky
As quiet as every late night conversation
And your mind is as vast as the universe we inhabit
Like a brave explorer venturing to a new world
I’ll travel to the ends of your mind
Unraveling every thought that you’ve ever had
You can do the same to me
But you’d find that most of my thoughts involve you
You’re a dream come true
For there are many men like me but only one woman like you
Your image has lived within my head for many years
It had no face and no name, but I knew you were out there
You are everything that I’ve ever wanted and so much more
I’ve dreamt of you for so long
And now that you are here, you make me speechless
I can’t find a single word to describe my emotions for you
Is it love? Is it happiness? Is it contentment?
Whatever the feeling is, it’s foreign to me
I haven’t felt anything quite like this in some time
Good things fall apart so better things can fall together
And remember, my darling, there’s always a patch of sunshine
In the most inclement weather
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11. |
Good Things (Bonus)
02:27
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Between the mistakes and regrets
That I've made in the last two years
I shouldn't be too surprised
When everything goes to hell
Many sleepless nights I wonder why
I can't just move on and forget
Everything from my past
But my old man once told me,
"Behind every scar is a story
And someday you'll have many to tell
Remember that you're a man
Remember that one day you'll die
I just hope you find everything
You've been looking for at long last"
If good things come to those who wait
I think I've waited long enough
To find somebody new
But through it all, I stood tall
I just kept going when the going got tough
Until every mistake lead me to you
What he said kept running through my head
I wish I knew exactly what he meant
How can I find everything I'm looking for
When I have no idea where to start?
I can't even find myself anymore
So how the hell did I ever find you?
I've really needed a change
But things just want to stay the same
It's like my feet are stuck in blocks of cement
If it weren't for you pulling me out
I could have truly fallen apart
It was then I knew what my father meant
You were everything I've been looking for
I didn't find myself until I found you
Good things come to those who wait
So let's make up for lost time
Let's run away from everything and everyone
Including the towns we both hate
We'll follow the setting sun
I never want to lose you
And everything that we hold dear
You're everything I've been looking for
Let's start a future together
So I can forget the last two years
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Nine times out of ten
You'll find me starting at my calendar
I'll be surprised you don't think I'm insane
Memories constantly haunt me
But the realization always hits me
That I'll never get to relive them again
I'm sorry I'm nostalgic for the past
Maybe if I stare at the clock hard enough
Time will suddenly slow down
Instead of moving so fast
My old man once said
"Son, you don't have time to waste
No one wants to die alone
With an empty feeling in their chest
Wherever you go, go with all your heart
But all I ask from you
Is that you'll take your lover's hand
And tell her you're headed for happiness"
I wish you knew how afraid I am
Of growing just a little bit older
I've seen relationships fall to pieces
And friendships drift apart
Each year my hometown feels a bit colder
I've only been in love once
But I think I somehow got cursed
With a broken heart
And when you find out you can't fix it
Would you abandon me
If you did, I couldn't blame you
You wouldn't be the first
My biggest fear is being lonely
I hope I’m not the only one
My father said to never waste my time
I wish that would stop it happening to me
You know I've had some bad luck
I'm slowly coming undone
But you're putting me back together
I've always prepared for the worst
And hoped for the very best
If you promise that you're here to stay
Maybe I can take my old man's advice
And start heading for happiness
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13. |
Five AM (Bonus)
02:15
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Sleepless nights come too easy
I toss and turn then eventually
Stare at my blank ceiling
Waiting for something
Waiting for anything
To alleviate this empty feeling
I’ve spent too many nights alone
Wishing for someone to come
To share the empty space in my bed
Give me some peace of mind
So I can shut my tired eyes
And I can rest my heavy head
I've barely slept the last two years
Spending my nights hoping and waiting
For someone to come along
That will steal every second of my attention
Staying up until five AM
Listening to our favorite songs
We'll talk silently all night
Within a late night conversation
Tell me all of your childhood dreams
And the ones that never came true
My old man once told me
That if something is meant to work out
Life will find a way
You'll just have to trust me
I've been wrong my whole life
Just this one time, I pray that I'm right
I wish I was right
Remember when we made plans
To run away together
Catch a flight to New York City
To start a new life on the east coast
Where no one's seen our faces
And without a dollar to our names
Well, what are you waiting for?
We don't have much time to waste
Let's pack our bags at five AM
I don't care where we go
As long as I'm with the one I miss most
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Seasons Change was a band recommended to me by a buddy of mine, and I've been playing their debut album, Please Don't Leave, nonstop. It's seriously my favorite pop-punk record this year.
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